i don't exist anymore
do i?

so sad
to fade away
to fade beyond the brick walls
and ivy-covered dreams
to become nothing

nothing more than a vague allusion
on a drunken friday night
nothing more than a half-heard whisper
dispersing on a distant breeze
nothing more than a fragmented dream
dissolving in dawn's early light

did i mean so little
was i so worthless
that i could be dismissed so easily
from the pathways of your life
condemned to an endless oblivion
of the cruelest kind

once i was stupid enough
to believe that i mattered
to believe that you cared

but you proved me wrong
didn't you?
and with such flippancy
it almost seemed too easy
a casual twitch of your mind
and i was gone
forever

if i existed anymore
i'd hate you