Fragmented Thoughts Found Between Moments In Time

Emerald-eyed demons eagerly tearing at my soul
Poisonous needle claws rending
Shredding my hope
My desire
Destroying all once held dear
I can feel them fragmenting my heart
Shattering it beyond repair
God, the pain will kill me.

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I look
I see
I want what cannot be
Surrounded by excessive banality

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I stand alone
I exist alone
Grasping with futile hope
At a moment which could not be
Fingers close upon a hollow dream
Which was never there
Fingers curl over empty palms
Filling me with despair
Nothing was as nothing is
Leaving me
Alone

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My heart rules from an empty throne
Reigning over forsaken realms
Where nothing moves
But dust tormented by the wind
Nothing lives
Nothing breathes
Within this desert that was once my soul
Now laid bare for all eternity

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Sometimes I dream of the green on the gray
Wishing I could return to that time
Of violent storms
And rending winds
And forlorn dreams of what could be
But what never was

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Forever I walk away
Bowing my head politely
I pause and say,
"I will leave you now."
Before I turn and am gone
Never looking back
Never letting the world watch
My soul as it begins its dying
Never letting others see
My heart as it begins its crying
Never letting others know
My thoughts as I begin hurting
From loss
From lack
From never turning back
Forever I walk away
Never letting
Never letting

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They make excuses
They give me lies
All presented on shallow platters
Expecting me to feast on them
And be satisfied
Why do they believe me
To be one so stupid
That I cannot taste the poison
Laced so heavily amongst their words
So full of falsity
Do I mean so little
Am I seen as being so small
That they consider falsehoods transparent
Enough to sate the ravenous sorrow
Residing in my soul

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Where do I put the love
Of another time?
Did I ever really care?
Or was it but a farce
Contrived to fool my soul
Into believing I could be
More human than I am?

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Kiss my brow softly
And bid me fare thee well
For I must leave you now
And I never
Never
Will return