waiting for a new year to dawn
bright
glorious
full of hope?
the time has come my friends
for us to say goodbye
memories of thunderstorms
making dark the night within
stab through my mind
with white-hot intensity
filling my dreams
with endless sorrows
and mournful might-have-beens
the pain of being
has never been easy to bear
i dream of you
do you dream of me?
in those idle moments
caught between thoughts
sometimes i wish you would
so that i would still have a reason
a purpose
i never wanted to be free
please believe me
i lost you once
i don't want to lose you again
everything is fast losing sense
in this insanity which engulfs me
sucking me down
beyond all hope of salvation
i am lost
i have lost
the hurt follows me
doggedly tracking me
through this vast illusion
we presume to call life
i will always wait for you
though i might not always be here
don't ever think
that i would ever really leave you
part of me
will be with you forever
i never wanted to leave
but the silence called too loudly
deafening me with its siren song
i fall into oblivion
and am consumed
for you
love